So we had our doctor appointment with the endocardiologist for Baby Boy Moore… It was so nerve wrecking laying there while the lady did the ultrasound. I was happy to see my baby, but sad at the same time….just thinking about the reality of why we were having yet again another ultrasound. Wayne was there with me, thank God, he has such a calming presence about him, and I appreciate him for staying calm which in return helps me to remain calm. We held hands while the ultrasound tech did her hour scan. All I could do was pray and quote the same scripture that God gave me when we lost Brayden…”Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, lean not to thine own understanding, in all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths’ Proverbs 3:4-5.
After she finished, the doctor came in and shared with us the news of Baby Boy Moore. He gave us a diagnosis’ of a condition…we officially had a name. I cried. I had been praying to God to do a miracle, I wanted the miracle to be done before I came to this appointment. I wanted the doctor to be surprised, and I wanted to say ohhh it was GOD!! But that was not the case, the doctor drew us diagrams of what he saw, gave us a slew of medical terms. I silently cried, tears streaming down my face. The doctor went on to tell us that there would be multiply surgeries to correct the problem. One at a few days to week old, again at 6 months and again at 2 years of age….I was devastated. But even in hearing all of the “problems” I had hope. So although, my miracle didn’t take place by when I expected it to…I still believe, trust and am holding on to God that HE will perform the miracle. God keeps telling me Thank God for life, Thank God for life. I am still praying and believing God. Oh how I wanted this journey to be over but it indeed continues. Daily I will trust in you Lord. I received a phone call from Nationwide Children’s Hospital; they have started the process for my baby. I broke down and cried, the weight of the reality of this situation just hit me all over again but God spoke up and said let them do what they have to do, and you do what you have to do. So I will continue to pray and speak life and healing over my precious Baby. I will do what I have to do on my end…I will prepare; I will seek God, and believe God for the miracle of life in my womb. I will do the natural things tour the hospital, meet the surgeon, etc etc ect…but I am going to work it on the spiritual side as well. Ohhhh but to be considered….Lord let your Glory be manifested!!