Well here I am at the hospital…having Baby Christian….lots of emotions going through my head. My mind keeps going back to Baby Brayden…and everything that took place last time we were here. The checking in process…hoping and praying that the outcome was different from what I feared…. Walking down the hall to our room today…praying that they would not put me in the same room, my heart jumping when I though they were going to. I miss Brayden…it’s been about a year and a half…a little longer.
I am hooked up right now with IV’s getting meds, having a few contractions. I am excited to meet Christian and nervous at the same time. I am praying and believing God for a miracle right now…do it Jesus…do it for me, my baby, my family. Trust God, No Fear that’s what I keep hearing over and over and over no fear no fear trust God, trust God. On our way here to the hospital today, we passed a church and on their billboard it said “God is able expect a miracle” so that is what we are doing….we are expecting a miracle….because God IS able!!!
God is so AWESOME!! Christian Adell Moore is here, he is so beautiful, and he looks like his older brothers Wayne and Michael. He is so gorgeous!! He is so beautiful, I was so happy to finally meet him, see the baby who was moving all over the place and did not agree with the smell of mint. Christian was 6 lbs and 6 oz. and 19 inches long. He was born at 9:49 pm. Labor was pretty good. We started at about 3pm arm with the induction. The nurse blew the vein in my arm…it hurt sooo bad, oh I could of cried…I was also mad at the nurse…I knew something was wrong because me wrist blew up like a balloon…I was just looking thinking to myself…I’ve never experienced this before…something is not right. My husband just looked at me, he knew I was mad…he told me to smile….gotta love him. I didn’t want her to have to put my IV in at all but you gotta have one…I just didn’t want it to hurt. Well as the labor continued my contractions were about 5 min apart but my water wasn’t broken yet so I was good my pain level was only at a 4…so I was doing good. I was still only dilated to 2 when we came in so we still had time. As they kept giving me the pitocin the contractions continued and were getting stronger. I told the nurse that I wanted an epidural before my water was broke (that’s not what happened though) Honey once they broke my water the contractions came in like nobody’s business….ohhhhweeee, my contractions started coming ever 2 min…JESUS, I don’t know how women do it without meds…no clue how. They finally came in to do my epidural, it hurt, I could feel the needle in my back, it didn’t feel right, the doctor talked about taking it out and redoing it…oh I just cried. I cried because it felt like everything was going wrong, so I became fearful for Christian, I was so concerned for him, I wanted everything to be ok for him and it just seemed like all this bad stuff was happening. NO FEAR NO FEAR. Wayne was holding my hand I knew he knew why I was crying, not from the epidural, or the blown vein but I was concerned for Christian. I asked the doctor to wait a min and prayed to God, the pain from the epidural went away. Thank you Jesus. The contractions finally eased up with the help of meds!! I felt like I had to use the bathroom, but actually Christian was getting ready to come, they checked me and I had dilated to 8, so it wouldn’t be long now. From 3 to 8 in 20 min. Christian was born after 1.5 pushes, Dr. Moltan told me to stop pushing and he was out, he was here. He cried, which was beautiful, he wasn’t blue, he was able to breath all on his own. The ICU nurses immediately took him and checked his stats and vitals. They allowed me to hold him for maybe 5 minutes before they rushed him out the room. I was talking to him, he was just looking up at me…it was a beautiful moment, priceless and precious. Shortly thereafter they whisked him out the room and prepared me to go to the post pardum rooms. The nurses at Riverside worked on Chrisitan a long while, they had told Children’s to be at the hospital at midnight, but they still were not ready, I don’t think Children’s took Christian into their responsibility until 1:30am which is when they brought him back to see me before he left Riverside and was transported to Nationwide Children’s Hospital. He was so beautiful, I was so happy to see him, he was hooked up to numerous machines and had wires everywhere…but there was life, thank God for life. I was not able to hold him because he was in a covered isolate, but I did love on him for a couple of minutes. When they took him, I cried, oh boy did I cry. I had to pray, I didn’t want to be angry with God…I really didn’t. I had truly expected God to heal my baby in my womb…God chose not to do it that way…I was devastated. My husband reminded me of the scriptures that I always quote…Luke 1:45 and Proverbs 3:4-5. I am telling you God is truly a keeper of the mind…He really is.