Christian is home, I am so grateful to God, to have my family all under one roof…sigh. God is so good. Christian came home a month to the day he was born. Wayne and Michael were so excited for their brother to come home. Wayne Jr in his young years has experienced a great deal as far as death is concerned, so he didn’t completely wrap his heart around the idea of his new baby brother coming home. He remembers that Baby Brayden didn’t come home and that he never saw him, and he so much as reminded us. When we finally were able to bring Christian home Jr said, “I can tell my friends at school that my baby is alive” Both boys are very protective over their new brother, they let us know when he is crying and suggest to us what he may need or what we need to do. The other night we let Wayne hold Christian and he was just so proud…his face was beaming, a wonderful and precious sight.
Night times are rough, I am not going to lie. We have to make sure Christian is up every 3 hours to feed, it is critical that he gains weight for his second surgery. He is doing really good, taking down most feeds 60 ml or 2 ounces. He is doing what most babies do, poop eat cry and sleep…all of which is wonderful. Looking at Christian you would not know that he has serious medical conditions going on in his tiny body. I asked God the other day, why would you give us a child like this…and He simply said “because you would love him” and we do…we love him dearly and of course what to do what is best for him. My mind is traveling back to when we first learned of Christian’s serious medical issues…and how the doctor said or tried to say we could abort. As I sit here typing this and look over at my beautiful baby, I see a miracle of life…I see the goodness of God. I see that through this how God is strengthen us, giving us a deeper knowledge of who He (God) is. My goodness…how do you ever learn who God is if you don’t go through anything. True, I would say no no not this test Jesus….as many of us would…but today, I can say that my God has kept my child through my entire pregnancy, He has kept him through surgery at such a tender age, when Christian was so tried and in so much pain after surgery and his heart stopped, God brought back life. I know God as a protector and a keeper of my child’s body a prayer answering God. I know we have much more to go through on this journey of trust…but thank God that we are on this journey in the precious hands of God.