Sigh…just when you think you have enough going and you finally come to the realization that you cannot do it all and that you most def need God’s help in ALL areas of your life, another bump in the road comes along. Yesterday Christian had another clinic appointment; the outcome was not what we wanted to hear as parents, it was a reminder of how serious Christian’s condition really is. The doctor told us that if there were any problems with his feeds or his oxygen levels that Christian would be admitted into the hospital. Christian caught a cold from his older brothers a couple weeks ago and has not really been the same since. Hearing the news on yesterday crushed me. My heart hurt then and hurts now. My heart hurts for Christian, God knows I did not want this for him…EKG’s echo’s, he already doesn’t like the clinic visits, his heart rate is usually up and he is a little crankier. It’s hard to watch your 2.5 month old get all these tests and examinations….to be so young and have to deal with so much.
I will walk by faith.