Christian is 4 months today and has not had any hospitalizations Thank God Almighty!! When we were first leaving the hospital they told us not to be surprised if Christian would have to be readmitted before his next surgery, they told us that this is very common with heart babies. Well Christian is 4 months
Lord Lord Lord, sigh. My heart just bleeds for my baby and all that he has to deal with and he really has no idea….its his normal…shame on me for what I complain about. Christian is a miracle and every day that I look at him I have to thank God for life and thank
My heart is hurting for Baby Brayden, we are fast approaching his 2nd birthday, my mind is filled with all the what ifs, and how’s and why’s. I remember the pain, the hurt the crushing of my heart, feeling totally helpless and devastated, feeling like I was so close and it was all snatched away,
I am so excited for what God is doing for my baby. So truly grateful to God!! Yesterday Christian had another clinic appointment. He had an echo, EKG, the dietitians came in, the home monitoring nurses came in the room, it was like a revolving door. Christian had been doing well all week, eating really
I thank God for my sister she has truly been a blessing to me, she is a powerful and dynamic women of God….many would be surprised at how powerful and anointed she is. My sister allows me to be me, allows me to come to her as a sister but yet she respects the position
Sigh…just when you think you have enough going and you finally come to the realization that you cannot do it all and that you most def need God’s help in ALL areas of your life, another bump in the road comes along. Yesterday Christian had another clinic appointment; the outcome was not what we wanted
Christian is home, I am so grateful to God, to have my family all under one roof…sigh. God is so good. Christian came home a month to the day he was born. Wayne and Michael were so excited for their brother to come home. Wayne Jr in his young years has experienced a great deal
Sitting here in the hospital, Christian is sleeping, I don’t want to wake him up although I do want to hold him close. Everything is going pretty good. Christian is eating really well, anywhere between 39 and 50ml. The nurse just told me that he has been finishing all his bottles, although he did have
I am trying not to be angry, I really am. I am trying to remain thankful, but it is hard at times. Up and down, down and up…I hate this rollercoaster. We move to the step down unit, Christian is doing really good, feeding, breathing completely on his own, pooping all that good stuff. Well
Sitting here in the hospital, Wayne dropped me off and he and the boys went on to church. I can say I truly understand what my cousin Wendi meant when she said I just want all my family under one roof. It is so hard to try and manage the family when it is separated.
I sit here in Christian’s CICU room, (cardiology intensive care unit) and I listen to him cry in pain…and there is nothing that I can do, but close my eyes and pray…he is crying out in pain every 2-3 minutes. My heart aches for him, I wish there was something more that I could do.
I sit here at 4:55pm by myself which is ok, gives me time to think…I hear the family next door laughing and talking all happy. Sigh…I am grateful, very grateful, that I have a living baby, breathing crying and pooping….oh my heart hurts for both my babies, Brayden and Christian. I wish I was holding
Well here I am at the hospital…having Baby Christian….lots of emotions going through my head. My mind keeps going back to Baby Brayden…and everything that took place last time we were here. The checking in process…hoping and praying that the outcome was different from what I feared…. Walking down the hall to our room today…praying
I sit here very pregnant 33 weeks almost 34 weeks pregnant with Christian, holding the imprint of Brayden’s feet in my hand, my heart bleeding for him. Thoughts that I will never hold him in my arms again until perhaps Glory; it goes to show you that one baby does not and will not replace
Yesterday was an end and a new beginning all at the same time. Agape made it official they installed a new Senior Pastor. It was good to see old church family…but it was sad, all the memories of the ministry, the teaching, preaching …I could see Dad everywhere…standing at the pulpit preaching, or about to
I broke down today…I couldn’t hold it in anymore….I was in the bathroom at work, crying snotting and throwing up all at the same time. Wayne and I had previously discussed which one of us was going to come off our job once Christian was born (yes we have decided on a name☺) Well today,